The First Ending and Risks...

So I have come to the end of my first Quad as a college freshman. I now have a four day weekend to rest, relax, and study (?). We'll see... My roommate and my suitemates are gone to visit their homes, so I have the entire suite to myself! It is kind of nice.
I said bye to my roommate yesterday in the afternoon and watched her drive off into the sunset towards Minnesota. I had waited with her for her ride to come and then when it was time for her to go, we gave each other a big, warm hug. Watching her leave made me feel like my heart was being pulled out of my chest... I hate it how I come to care for people so quickly and so deeply! I mean I have only known her since August, and I already love her so much! It is just dangerous for me to give my heart away so fast, and I know that in my head, but I can't seem to stop myself sometimes.
I know you are thinking, "what is wrong with loving your roommate?" And the simple answer is: nothing really, except that Love Hurts. Too often those relationships or people I - as my friends like to say - "dive" or "jump" into, are one-sided. One person cares more than the other does, and I am usually the one to get the short end of that stick. Love makes you vulnerable and so it is likely that you will get hurt in some way. So everytime I realize that I have let myself love someone and invest in them, it is always really scary. So why do I keep doing it when...
"There is no safe investment. To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one." - C.S. Lewis
And yet we are called as Christians to give our hearts to Jesus, and to love others as he has loved us. So C.S. Lewis' quote seems to take the form of a disclaimer. As Christians, we are called to love yes, but it warns us that this is what we are getting ourselves into. Love isn't easy.
Anyway... that was a long bunny trail, all to say that I love my roommate and I am looking forward to spending some time this weekend sleeping and reflecting...